Back Off.

I deserve THIS more than anyone in this whole wide world.

So stay away.

And I mean it, STAY AWAY.

Can life get any more fulfilling? :)

For once, I am eagerly looking forward to the future. There is so much in store for me in the days, weeks, months and years to come. And above all, I am excited to find out what are HIS plans for my little one. She fought destiny to be born, I am quite sure HE has huge plans for her :)

One of the best moments in life are the times I get to watch little one chuckling and giggling away in her sleep. Oh my. Its the most adorable thing I have ever seen. And they say, when babies smile or laugh, it means God is speaking to them and angels are whispering in their ears. Now you know why I say HE loves her too much. She is always smiling and laughing :)

She's growing way too fast. And she will be one brave and tough little one. Till this day, I have not seen her crying out of pain. Even when they pricked her to take blood, and she's only 2 weeks old. So ya, thank God she took after me in that, and didn't turn out to be a weakling or a coward :)

Talking about weaklings and cowards, I think guys who allow themselves to be henpecked are utterly disgusting. Guys who let the woman rule their life, especially against their wishes, guys who keep running to their woman when there is a prob and wait for the lady to find a way out for them, guys who wait upon their woman even when it means torture to them, they should just turn into gays, they will do much better.

And Finally, with Her, It All Makes Sense :)

Ok, a very quick one!

My last sentence of my last blog says "Long day tom!" Never did I expect it to turn out to be a long week. I left my house for a casual day out, not having the slightest idea that the next time I will be returning back, will be, with her :)

She is a beauty. And there is just no other words to exaggerate that. A true miracle, brought into this world to add colours in many lives from the very beginning till now. The moment I saw her, I knew at once, it was His reward for me, his way of answering all my questions, once and for all. For all the 'why' questions I tormented God with all my life, I was finally shown, this was why. And, IT IS, so worth. She completes my life. I don't need anything else. :)

The only one my stubborness won't work with, is HIM. I know the exact reason why HE gave me a C- Section. Hmmm. But yes, thank you for not letting me have my way and taking charge once again. I guess it was for the best. :)

So anyway, babies, kids, children- and I say this with utmost love- can wear the heck out of you :) Its a whole new lifestyle. Every routine has changed. In fact, there isn't routine anymore. Everything is just rushed through with one after another coming up, and before I know it, the day is over. But the best part to all these is, end of the day, I still go to bed with a smile. :)

I thought, all my life I grew up seeing the worst kind of fathers. But, I finally saw one, that manage to beat all the rest, when it comes to insincerity and inhumanity. Hmmm.

Btw, now that my life feels more or less settled and complete, I think I might wanna get more personal with it. Which means, my blog would be privatised soon. So those who want to, you can drop me a msg on facebook with your email add and I will add you so that you can continue reading. [Invitation goes to friends and loved ones only.] :)

Not sure when I will have time to update again..but will try to make time. Till then, thank you all of you, for all the love and support you have showered on me and my little angel all these while. Lovesss. :)

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Typhoon, Earthquake, Tsunami and whatever else. Oh God, if there is gonna be a second Noah's Ark, I would like to reserve seats for me and little one... I still want to live, with her. :)

A loooong tiring day, yet a very happy and fulfilling one. Thank you darlings, and yes, she will be out soon, just awhile more..patience! :)

By the way, to those who do not know this yet, I have stopped working and am on leave already. So do stop worrying! :) I am just slacking nicely, waiting for her to arrive. And yes, of cos, spending some good fruitful time with loved ones before the huge lifelong task comes along, hopefully then, I won't be missed too much. Heh heh.

And yes yes, I know I am suppose to be resting and be safe and sound at home. But on the other hand, its my last chance to 'oorusutharaan' like crazy, and I am sooo NOT gonna waste it! So don stop me either. And no worries, I have taught everyone what to do if anything happens suddenly :D

I know this might be a wishful thinking on my part, but I am hoping it will be this coming weekend. That would be quite ideal. Preferably Sunday. Exactly a week from now to settle everything else, and a nice day too, to meet the little one for the very first time. Ha. Lets see, hope and pray :)

Which also means, time is running out and I will need to hurry decide. Hmmm. Hate it when plans get screwed at the last minute. But ya, I know, if that isn't life for you, then what is? Oh well. As I said, there can be millions of probs in the world, and for each of them, there can be millions of ways to solve, but nothing beats leaving all of them to HIM, and then to just sit back and watch Him do His wonders. And in my case, there has just been too many wonders all along till this vey day :) And I truly believe it won't be long before yet another one takes place, to show me the right path this time too.

And Youuuuu, soooo glad you are back! Missed you soooo much, especially when you were not around amidst all these confusions :( You have been such a great pillar all along, and I so badly need to lean a bit right now. Can't wait for tom :)

Long day tom too :)

Phew :)

Wow. I can't believe I made it through work. I really thought I would drop dead halfway, but I didn't! Yeah!

So anyway, A&E made me realise that I am really not the ward kind of nurse. I prefer a fast paced environment with something new and challenging every now and then. A&E was very interesting, but definitely extremely challenging too. You literally save lives there, so you gotta know EVERYTHING at your fingertips! Given the person I am, I know I would do quite well there. So its between A&E and OT now. Most prob, A&E I think. Hmmm.

Dropping the subject of work for now, Dr said it can be anytime 2 weeks before or 2 weeks after the official date. So, the waiting game has actually begun. I still have some little stuffz here and there to settle, which would be done by wed or thurs I guess... So little one is welcomed to arrive anytime after that. Earlier the better. :)

I am having a major battle with reality and the truth right now regarding one certain issue. Oh God, pls do be with me. Give me the strength pls.

And last but not least, Temptations can be deadly.

21 days more :)

How your baby's growing:

Congratulations — your baby is full term! This means that if your baby arrives now, her lungs should be fully mature and ready to adjust to life outside the womb, even though your due date is still three weeks away.Your baby weighs 6 1/3 pounds and measures a bit over 19 inches, head to heel (like a stalk of Swiss chard). Many babies have a full head of hair at birth, with locks from 1/2 inch to 1 1/2 inches long. But don't be surprised if your baby's hair isn't the same color as yours. And then, of course, some babies sport only peach fuzz.

How your life's changing:

Braxton Hicks contractions may be coming more frequently now and may last longer and be more uncomfortable. You might also notice an increase in vaginal discharge. If you see some "bloody show" (mucus tinged with a tiny amount of blood) in the toilet or in your undies, labor is probably a few days away — or less. (If you have heavier spotting or bleeding, call your caregiver immediately.) It may be harder than ever to get comfortable enough to sleep well at night. If you can, take it easy through the day — this may be your last chance to do so for quite a while. Keep monitoring your baby's movements, too, and let your caregiver know immediately if you notice a decrease. Though her quarters are getting cozy, she should still be as active as before. While you're sleeping, you're likely to have some intense dreams Anxiety both about labor and about becoming a parent can fuel a lot of strange flights of unconscious fancy.


By the way people, I have got too many signs saying it may be anytime soon, but I am hoping it won't be this week. Pray! :)

"My dear darling, do wait for at least just another 1 more week before deciding to come out...Mommy has just one last thing to do before she's totally ready and prepared for your arrival..."

:)

The Exceptional.

Once again, Telepathy spoke. Though this time, I am not sure if I wanted it to.

"நான்கு கண்ணாடி சுவர்களுக்குளே நானும் மெழுகுவத்தியும் தனிமை தனிமையோ..கொடுமை கொடுமையோ.."

What a hectic week it has been. Work was fine though, since it was just OT attachment this week. Not that tiring like ward. It was the every other thing I had to do this week that hauled me down.

Working had never been more interesting like how it was working at the operation theatre. I am quite surprised that I actually liked it so much that I am seriously considering to be an OT Nurse. I loved it there. The challenges that met us every single day. A surgery is no easy thing. And the sense of triumph and achievement the scrub team gets for each successful surgery done is just amazing. I want to be part of that too. And oh ya, not to mention, the surgeons. Hmmm. For once, I will agree, doctors can actually be quite cool, and hot. And those big time surgeons, they have brains like all over! Heh :D

Coincidentally, mum's op was in the same week I had my OT posting, though we were at different hospitals. But I did manage to see the exact surgery they were gonna perform on her. I am not really sure if that was a good thing. Cos it sure made me feels lots more nervous. Esp since the ones I watched lasted only 2 hours, whereas I didn't hear from her ward for more than 5 hours. I got worried sick. But thank god, it all went well and fine. She is alright. Thank you for all your prayers. :)

Did the last bit of shopping this week. Well, I must say, apart from the money spent and the tiring part of making sure I have everything, it was one of the most joyful shopping I have ever done :) Who knew babies would actually need so many things? From the huge items like the cot, to the really tiny ones like nappy pins. There are really lots to get. Nice. :)

Looks like little one has really put on lots of weight. Her moves are so strong nowadays. My OT blouse became too tight for me at tummy area within just a few days! :)

"New York Nagaram" gives me the goosebumps and makes my heart skip a beat. And I can't really figure out the exact reason for it. Whether its because of this, or that.

பேச்செல்லாம் தாலாட்டு போல என்னை உறங்க வைக்க நீ இல்லை..

தினமும் ஒரு முத்தம் தந்து காலை காபி கொடுக்க நீ இல்லை

விழியில் விழும் தூசி தன்னை நாவால் எடுக்க நீ இங்கு இல்லை

மனதில் எழும் குழப்பம் தன்னை தீர்க்க நீ இங்கு இல்லை

நான் இங்கே நீயும் அங்கே...இந்த தனிமையில் நிமிஷங்கள் வருஷம் ஆனதேனோ...