My little sweetheart has turned 5 months old! Just 1 more month to be half a year old! My god! She looks so grown now. She was all tiny when she was born. I still remember. So active, looking around, carefully examining the world. And now, she is all fat, long, noisy and beautiful than ever. And btw, from what I have observed so far, I can already see that she has a temper and she is extremely extremely stubborn. And I am not surprised. I have to think of strategies to successfully nip it in the bud. Hmmm. Plus, she chooses her people carefully. She is not gonna be an easy one. You wanna place in her heart, you gotta earn it. And yes, just 5 months, and I already know all these. She is definitely gonna be one interesting character. That I know for a fact. Love you so much baby. :)
I think I wanna sew her first traditional suit at 6 months. It has to be uniquely gorgeous. I shall start hunting for a nice material and good tailoring place. :)
I always knew I was a 'fightercock'. And I realised, when it comes to Little One, I am to the extreme. I will never forget the polyclinic incident that happened recently. It made me realise a lot. One small blunder on their service part, and I brought it up all the way to MOH. And the next time we went there, Little One received royal treatment. Really. And that made me realise, I am not gonna be easy when it comes to her. You mess with her and her needs, you are dead. ;D
On the other hand, I always thought I was a very possessive person too. I get jealous easily and I demand a lot of attention, only for me. But that has drastically changed. Now, I can’t be bothered one bit. If I were to have a partner now, I don’t think it would affect me much if he doesn’t call for days. So ya, on that part, you can say he is lucky. :D
In life, everyday and everything is a learning process. And by saying that, I must say I have learnt lots. Some lessons are good, some lessons are sad. I don’t know if there is a right and wrong to what we learn from something that happens to us. We are all different people and we have different perceptions. From whatever life has given me, this is what I have learnt. It may be wrong to you, but this is me. I am not happy saying it either, and I know how much it frustrates you. But, you haven’t given me anything else to say either. Maybe if you have, I could have made an exception for you. But you didn’t, and that makes all the difference. So don’t blame me. I am frustrated too.
I think humans are extraordinary. Recently, I have started observing characters and behaviour more than ever. And some people are just so different. I am not sure if abnormal and weird are right words to use, but they are just so different. God is truly amazing. I wonder how he can make so many many many many of us so differently. There is really no limit to his creativity, and that is so incredible.
I am glad I fear God. I truly fear his wrath. I am not sure if I can say I have seen it, but I do know what happens when you don’t obey him. It can be horrendous. I am not perfect. I still make mistakes. But I still have that fear, that fear when I wonder how God is gonna punish me when I do something against his word. And that, I believe, will always be a drive to stop whatever bad you are doing. It has been bugging me that I haven’t sacrificed anything for lent. And now I have decided on two things, both are so extremely hard. But I know it upsets Him when I do it. So, with lots of prayer and lots of self-control, I hope to make it. Help me in here Lord. And I love you lots. :)
I love my friends. All of them. The support they show me, it’s amazing. And I am quite sure I wouldn’t have been able to come this far without them. Especially to those who know me so well and know exactly what I need and being there to do it for me. Apart from Adrielle, the only other reason why I am still able to go on strong and fine, is you people. Thank you so much guys. Love you lots. :)
Lastly, before I go off, one for you. Thank you for giving me the maximum of what anyone could have possibly gotten from this. It may not have lasted, or even lasted long, but it happened and I am glad it did. It’s enough, to sustain what is left of me. :)
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Happy Birthday Sri! Our friendship goes a long way back and you know there's lots we have gone through together. Thank you for being a great friend and someone very special in my life. I know things are not very smooth right now, but I hope you have a blast and that all your goals and dreams will come true soon. God Bless ya. :)
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