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Morning shift tom. Its close to midnight. Yet, here I am blogging away. Ok but this time, I really need to. Seem to have lots going on currently and as usual, no one that interesting enough to talk to, ok ya except you I guess, and thank God for you, for everything you are. Really. :)

Anyways, what a month it has been. Seriously. Mainly, I would call it a month of making-up. I think I can get a record for the number of people I made up with this month. Loved ones who just decided to take off for no reason, best friends who decided to just vanish all of a sudden,childhood friends I never thot I would ever have contact with again, enemies who have spouted poisonous words, and the person I never imagined I will have a need to address as, My Friend, a good friend at that, one fine day. And just so you know, I completed that sentence with a huge fat sigh.

For the loved one, you have no damn idea how overjoyed I am that everything is so well between us now. I wont say its back to where it was, cos I just know that its gonna be better than ever. I missed you so badly, and I know you did too very much. I never had someone in the position you play in my life. A relation I always wanted in fact. Someone to look after, someone to love and scold, someone to care and protect, someone to have great fun and serious sessions with, someone to be there for and will be there for me, and now us, always. More than anything, as I have said before, Little One needs you. Very much. I am dependent on you for this dearest. And I am so glad you are finally back and everything is gonna go great..My Trumpet. Love you. Sundayyy! :)

For the best friend. Ironic that it was called best friendship, yet you vanished just by saying you will explain to me soon. When I finally heard from you again, I was soooo happy and you know it. Somehow, I am wishing now you didnt come back, you didn't explain your disappearance, you didn't make me discover the ugly truth. Sadly, it has changed things bet us and you know, I know, its never gonna be the same again. I guess I will forgive you eventually, but the closeness we had, its gone. And in your case, I am sad you came back.

Haiyz. And you. I don't know. I really don't know how good, or bad this is gonna be. I forsee lots of bad more than good actually. I gave you my word that I will have your back, with others. There will be lots to be said, lots of questions asked, lots of skepticism, lots of gossips and lots of everything that isn't really good. And during all these, I promise to stand beside you and face it all with you, and even fight for you, if necessary. Solely for her. But one thing I cannot, and will never be able to do, is to do all these sincerely, expecting you to keep up to your word. In fact, I am having absolutely no expectations, and I am gonna go on every single day fighting that urge to expect something great out of this, until I see concrete signs. My only, and only reason to even do this, is to salvage anymore damage it can already bring without it happening at all in the first place. After all these months, many things have happened to convince me enough that a little bit of you, even if its just tiny weeny, bad or painful, is better than nothing of you. So ya, here you are. I hope you will make the best out of it.

okkk. I reallyyyy need to get some sleep now! I havent touched on the plans made for end of this year! Oh and for 1 years old! So excited. I will leave that for next time!

Btw, Little One 9 months and 1 week old! Busy crawling around and standing up! Love you baby. :)

Oh! And pamster admitted in my ward! So cool, under my care and getting royal treatment cos she is Staff Nurse Shamala's sister! Hehehe. Get well soon my dear! :)

Nitey nite!